i've basically been slacking the whole day/ slept for 3hrs just now

oh my i dont exactly like my timetable. wed and thurs have prac, then immediately after that there's a lecture. zzz

it's only the third day into sch, yet i've been feeling so weird every single day. i cant explain it myself.



there's so much going on.

uncle clement > lung cancer
auntie lynn > blood disorder that's uncurable
my mom > today just found out that her voice loss may be due to tb or cancer


so much going on, how come i dont feel the remorse i should?

i'm praying, yet i dont seem to be sad.

how come i'm still joking ard? how come i still can go out for e past 2 days?
and not know abt the tb or cancer till today.

i cried jus now, i dont know out of guilt or true remorse.


i dont wish for anything to hpd to any of them


i even had the intention to blog abt yday, my so called late birthday celebration with 04 ppl.
what's wrong with you, ruth yap eng luan?


maybe i will only learn the hard way.





God have mercy

♥ we have changed but we're still the same ;